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Love, Of An Unexpected Kind

Posted on Aug 9th, 2008 by GwenCaith : Kitchen Mystic Gal Next Door GwenCaith
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It's 4am on a Saturday, and I'm happily awake.  This week has been filled with drama, triggered by the playboy-irresponsible machinations of an Ex-husband who wouldn't grow up and take responsibility for my preteen daughters;  a court hearing was held, and the results have drained me, even more than the very hearing itself.

Having been preparing intellectually and emotionally for this melodrama for a few weeks now, I've been neglecting my housework and other relationships;  when someone has reached their saturation point with one's neglect, however, attention-seeking behavior is sure to follow......

I honestly DON'T think what has transpired the last 24 hours was my dog Sophie's preferred manner, of getting my attention.

I found Sophie, a Petit Basset Griffon Vendeen of 53 weeks in age, in a local shelter, at the end of this past May.  Admittedly, she didn't seem terribly bright when I got her, compared to other dogs in my history, but I loved her looks and settled in, for having an average fluffball, that would share my antique bed and my newly acquired thrift store purchased loveseat.

Sophie, it seems, has adopted, with a great deal of cynical humor, my quintessential single ways.  In doing so, she has proceeded to challenge my values!  If I was paying too much attention to cable television,  Sophie was quick to attempt to treat the cable remote like a doggie candy bar;  teeth marks also have appeared on expensive leather-bound diaries and schedule books, and I can only be grateful that my favorite 35mm SLR camera is mainly a heavy metal model, so far impervious to her oral displays of jealousy.

This week, though, Sophies behavior got WORSE;  by Wednesday, I was convinced I had the worst-behaved dog in my county, probably my state.  I planned on asking a single veterinarian friend of mine if SHE might help me find a more suitable home for Sophie...

Alas, before I could have that conversation, Sophie demonstrated pain and illness;  by Friday afternoon, I was gratefully pumping this curmudgeon of a canine, with Clavamox antibiotics, and stroking her fur, as I quietly held her and apologized for not giving the girl the time and attention that might have aborted the pain her urinary tract infection obviously has had her in, all week.

After having fallen asleep with her on that too-short loveseat, I awakened at 3am, to find Sophie trying to climb off my lap;  by the time I realized what was happening, I was sitting upright on one end of that loveseat, while Sophie sardonically proceeded to chomp down on a pink baseball cap my youngest daughter had given me, and I'd really not liked, anyway.

As I write this, I know that I have found a match in temperament;  when I see my vet friend Maggie today, I'll NOT be talking to her, about GIVING SOPHIE AWAY.  Instead, I plan on speaking in hushed, grateful tones, of this now companion canine daughter, who has my sense of the irreverent, loves the creature comforts of antique beds, and who thinks chicken noodle soup is the very thing humans should give a neglected and sick canine.

I am privileged to have Sophie;  I am privileged, to find such a soulmate in love. 
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A Mighty But Joyful Noise: Introducing RubyBluz

Posted on Aug 20th, 2008 by GwenCaith : Kitchen Mystic Gal Next Door GwenCaith
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It's hard to let go, sometimes.  Other times, though, when things we value are being destroyed as fast as they are discovered, it's a lot easier.

Sophie, the dog mentioned in the blog before this one, had begun to destroy my clothing.  For 2 weeks, she'd taken dresses and underthings out of the laundry, and eaten holes into all.  I've no budget for clothing, and it seemed nothing was sacred to her.

Sophie, last week, was exchanged by a no-kill shelter, for the little lady you see here.

Born on Valentines Day, RubyBluz shares my birthday.  As I'd heard that chihuahuas were protective, I thought she might be just the security I needed, in a house where I'd been assaulted and raped, on three different occasions in just as many years.

I like CUDDLY dogs, though;  an anorexic chihuahua sure didn't seem like my idea of THAT!

As her first week here at Quarter Acre Wood ends, Ruby is proving to be JUST CUDDLY ENOUGH.  She's spirited and polite, but all purposeful;  her 3lbs prances from back door to front, surveying the property, and checking on my level of serenity and calm.  Unlike Sophie, she's most content, when I'm writing or reading, as I'm in one place and settled;  my kitchen and laundry duties take me to various rooms, and she isn't so calm, when I'm moving about.

Surprisingly, she doesn't bark that much;  While she's shown an adverse suspiciousness to men with facial hair, she greets Meals on Wheels volunteers (being handicapped, I qualify for this service) by dancing at the door all excitedly, as I check in with them and thank them for their kindness.

Ruby doesn't like seeing me touched;  she warns EVERYONE who comes, that they must clear her security check FIRST, before they are welcome in our home.

She's already taken charge of the house, and those three pounds have made me feel more secure than any larger dog EVER did.

Funny, how God can pack so much discipline and loyalty, into someone so very tiny.
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BLESSINGS: Abject Fear and How To Buy Toilet Paper

Posted on Aug 23rd, 2008 by GwenCaith : Kitchen Mystic Gal Next Door GwenCaith
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Well, I FINALLY got around to it:  I faced the numbers on my bank account....And found I'd, out of parnoia, protectively SAVED nearly $200.00 this month, rather than OVERDRAWING.

For weeks, now, I've been monitoring how much toilet paper I use.  Never mind, whether it's two-ply or 1 ply or polka-dot!  Food stamps don't pay for paper goods, so things like that have to come out of my $600.00 monthly income....

And two hours ago, accompanied by a breeze courtesy of Tropical Storm Fay, I walked to the nearest retail store-a tiny little American "dollar"-type store, replete with generic supplies of all kinds-and spent over 90 minutes, perusing the aisles.

"Need", I kept repeating;  "What is a NEED"? 

$31.26 later, I crossed a vacant lot on my way home, laden with three plastic sacs full of staples.  Grabbing an extra sunny yellow bag before leaving the stunned saleslady with a smile (hey, I even got some trail mix with chocolate bits in it-God sure allowed CHOCOLATE to make the necessities list!), I stopped at a lone pear tree I'd discovered on one of my walks, and quietly picked 12 small but sweetly soft greeen orbs for display and delight, in my little living room.

Yesterday, after reading of my shame over my innocent state, my crochet friend Jo mused at my writing talent, but yearned for a happy story....

How simply delightful it was, today, to read the labels of the various laundry detergents, and know my fondness for reading both ingredients AND numerical values would enable me to find a lavender-scented laundry cleaner with the most economical number of loads available, within my price range.

Grateful and mindful that I have a companion, Rubys needs didn't go unattended to:  I found chicken and sweet potato jerky dog chews in a sampler size of a dozen for less than $2.00, and a stuffed fleece fish toy with a squeaker that she can take naps with, for only a few pennies.

Nearly, though, I broke into tears, when I stumbled upon a 21 oz can of a dusty memorial of my childhood:  My Grandma Lils beloved "Bon Ami" cleanser for pots and pans was less than $2.00, and a much needed item, prior to packing away for safekeeping skillets and other cookware I rarely use.

Now that I'm home, I realize that few adults ever take such langorous stock of the stuff of daily housekeeping.  I know that I hold holy, the patterned toilet paper I DID purchase, as well as the blank prayer journal that I allowed myself.....

You can bet the first entry in THAT, will be a praise to God, for success in figuring out just how rich I truly am.
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GIVING WHAT I ASK FOR: A Second Chance at Bliss For A New Dog

Posted on Aug 25th, 2008 by GwenCaith : Kitchen Mystic Gal Next Door GwenCaith
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Sometimes, the heart DOES just need a second chance;  Tonight, lessons from my own experiences are benefitting the newest addition to my household.

When I went to meet the dog advertised on the Save A Pet website as "Peanut", I honestly didn't have much faith in him.  Based on my having succumbed to stereotypes, I kinda figured that any dog with such a name had to be a playful airhead, who'd just as soon wrestle with any one of the neighborhood stray dogs, as give an owner the time of day.

Knowing, however, what it's like to be underestimated, I was willing to meet this young man.  Mind you, I wanted a companion for Ruby, but her OWN airhead tendencies don't need to be encouraged;  "Peanuts" wasn't going to get away with too much, based on my predetermined level of scrutiny.

Thank God, I know a thing or two about noise and chaos!  With a few other dogs in the house "Peanuts" had temporary residence in, he wasn't particularly pleased to be distracted from wrestling with a terrier mix that was chasing him about the main room.  Seeing my veterinarian friend Maggie and I approach, he let out a low but decidedly annoyed snarl, and disappeared out of reach.

Between all the animals in one room and the well-meaning owners' apparent oblivion to the stench of urine, it occurred to me that "Peanuts" was the calmest and quietest animal in the room...

HUMAN or CANINE.

Despite barely glancing at him, I realized this little man, despite all the activity of human, canine and feline, HADN'T BARKED.   Instinctively, I realized that, as I'd historically had a nasty habit of 'acting out" in the midst of noise and negative influences, "Peanuts" was probably doing the VERY SAME THING.

I COULDN'T GET HIM OUT OF THERE, FAST ENOUGH.

Like myself, "Peanuts" calmed in the quieter environment of my little cottage.  While dog Ruby alternated between exuberance at having a new house canine companion and ABJECT JEALOUSY, this new little man explored his new environs, without so much as a grunt in the direction of Rubys' angst and drama.

Like myself, then, he needed PEACE.  Within his first three hours, he was allowing me to remove a restrictive harness prior owners had used to keep him from forging ahead during walks:  On leash and collar with me, he didn't do this at all, staying right by my side in the drizzling darkness.  As the border collies across the street, the chihuahua down the block and the 2 juvenile black labs next door barked out a cacophanous and cautious warning welcome, my new companion observed it all studiously and silently.

At my best and past my own nervousness, I don't make a lot of noise either.  When i realized my best required a change of environments, it became simple, to pass the blessing lesson on, to those I care about.

As I changed my own name, when I discovered MY BEST SELF, I gave "Peanuts" the opportunity to do the same.  Sitting outside in the remnants of Tropical Storm Fay, I recited a litany of names, til "Peanuts" responded to one....

and he's decided he's "Sammie" now.
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MAGIC SHOWS & MIRACLES: Searching For The Authentic Self

Posted on Aug 27th, 2008 by GwenCaith : Kitchen Mystic Gal Next Door GwenCaith
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Tonight, I'm preparing for an archeological excavation.  Wanting to move to a new residence, I must deal wtih my packrat, hoarding based NON-METHOD of housekeeping.

In order to begin to pack boxes full of what I want to have in the next phase of my life, I must first determine what of my belongings truly ISN'T authentically me.

Having been diagnosed, many years ago, with a fractured, never-fully formed personality, an easy way to clarify and identify myself is to treat my gleaning, housecleaning and packing process, like an ARCHEOLOGICAL DIG.

Even when my now-preteen daughters were 5 and 6, the thought of using formal archeological excavation and salvage techniques was a fun way to approach household piles of messes.

Basically, the procedure is to take one clearly defined, limited area and clear it, layer by layer, top to bottom.  The final step is to thoroughly clean and leave the cleared area in the best, most well-preserved condition possible, hoping to match the original condition it was found in, before messes and hoards of goods inhabited it.

I've lived in this house for 6 years.    With hardwood floors, cabinets and paneling, copious amounts of Murphys Oil Soap and torn shirts to be used as cleaning rags will be necessary.  They and trash bags and sorting boxes will be my tools, facilitating the discovery process.

What information am I hoping to reveal?  For one thing, just how many Bibles (one of my many collections) do I actually HAVE?  As I determine whether I like photography or nonfiction writing more, my home archeological dig findings should tell me, with certainty, which of these creative outlets has at least produced more product.

A question of weighed risks is already surfacing.  As an epileptic that has been seizure-free for over a decade, am I secure enough with my muscle control and functioning, to keep and begin to use the smoky glass tumblers a now-deceased neighbor gave me?  If not, the choice to give them to someone else will shed subtle insight, on both my eccentricities AND insecurities.

As a friend on another continent has promised me a long-ached for face to face visit in 7 weeks' time, I wonder if this season of discovery and refinement will lead to a time of joyful revealing, as my outward nature is examined.

Like the broadway musical character Pippin, I too, have "...wanted magic shows and miracles, mirages to touch...".  In the end of the stage show by the same name, Pippin himself learns a lesson I'm heeding here:

"....I wanted such a little thing from life
I wanted SOOO MUCH!.."

He finally concludes, revealing what gift his own process of discovery showed him:

"....Well, I wanted worlds to paint
and costumes to wear!

I think it WAS HERE
'cuz it NEVER WAS OUT THERE".

Like Pippin, I hope my journey of discovery reveals lovely opulence in my life, too.
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