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September 2008 
MOVING PAST THE FORMALITIES OF EXTENDED COURTSHIPS
Posted on Sep 10th, 2008
by 
GwenCaith
GwenCaith
When it comes to love, I'm a very skittish sort. While I want to dive in, headfirst, offering honesty and passion, affection and loyalty, the walls and tests that others put up seem to be game-playing formalities I must run the gamut of, in order to recieve and have the honor of, GIVING love.
That's all a crock of shit, to me. I've got soft skin and am a great kisser and cuddler; daughters to friends, lovers to husbands have all admired those qualities of mine. Ever loyal and to a fault, it's I, that have been cheated on, taken for granted, and basically tested.
Looking back, it's these qualities of softness and loyalty and faithfulness, that constitute the most wonderful, about me. I don't understand, then, why all of it was tested, by an Ex-husband, who had an affair and a child, with a secretary, then referred to me, as his MOST HONORABLE WIFE. What was I supposed to call THAT MAN? THE MOST HONEST of ALL BASTARD HUSBANDS?
These days, I'm looking for someone, as eager as I am, to dispense with the childish prerequisites, and just jump into loving. I'm good at commitment to a man, and even better, at the loyalty and honor stuff. I frankly am finding all the emotional flirting and dancing about in the disguise of caution and carefulness, just tedious delaying of love and joy.
Kudos, cuddles, kisses, and more, then, to the man that can move past all this, and just jump into loving. I've yet to meet him, but gosh, what joy and happy passion awaits!
That's all a crock of shit, to me. I've got soft skin and am a great kisser and cuddler; daughters to friends, lovers to husbands have all admired those qualities of mine. Ever loyal and to a fault, it's I, that have been cheated on, taken for granted, and basically tested.
Looking back, it's these qualities of softness and loyalty and faithfulness, that constitute the most wonderful, about me. I don't understand, then, why all of it was tested, by an Ex-husband, who had an affair and a child, with a secretary, then referred to me, as his MOST HONORABLE WIFE. What was I supposed to call THAT MAN? THE MOST HONEST of ALL BASTARD HUSBANDS?
These days, I'm looking for someone, as eager as I am, to dispense with the childish prerequisites, and just jump into loving. I'm good at commitment to a man, and even better, at the loyalty and honor stuff. I frankly am finding all the emotional flirting and dancing about in the disguise of caution and carefulness, just tedious delaying of love and joy.
Kudos, cuddles, kisses, and more, then, to the man that can move past all this, and just jump into loving. I've yet to meet him, but gosh, what joy and happy passion awaits!
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